Sweet Dreams Are made of these.......

On the back of a fun friday night I've come down to a fairly quiet saturday and sunday. I made the group LGS my profile pic and i found out like a lot later the Otter did the same. Its like his trig not to lead me on..gone are the advances that i looked forward to so much but we still had some moments..i keep thinking of his four out four talk...he waits for the men to declare their love and he made it a point to let me know he never has said no..the arctic fox has just sent a message and the question he has asked has an answer I'm afraid of. I miss the sunday nite dinners and even the friday nite ones which dissipated when we went to south america..i know i am big in his heart ...he wears my band and i remember he once said this is never coming off...and so far its true...maybe his waiting for me to be more assertive but give me a break he needs to give me a little sign..something stronger than a miranda picture with fruit friends. He says he has to wash the shame as do i  as i have no idea what was in my bed on friday nite. so the group are stirring bickie and the greyhound about getting together i mean is that so bad i think it would be sweet. meanwhile my dreams have taken on a sex in the city big and carrie theme or maybe miranda and gary or geraldine and the handsome stranger.heres to some dreams thatr will come true.

Otter and the rabbit

"Please don't kiss me on the lips
And don't look In my eyes
It humbles me to misery
And it pains me to shine
If I wipe out your name
For it gives me endless pain
That you never felt the same".........j.f.ramos

The night after the otter crawled into my head at 10.50 the surreal feeling I laughed and kicked the air
I wait now to see what happens.

otter and the rabbit

so at 10.50 the otter wanted     me........

"Internally Indigo"....Javier Ramos..The Indigo

Today was a bit of a set back..i felt like i had heart burn all day.with it being a little painful to swallow..i also felt tired and am not sure if it was the nights sleep i had..i think i got bitten by a spider which kept me up...but goday id lost that magic,,or was it the heat..who knows but the heat is continuing
Still trying to avoid conversations im thinking no not in this heat not when im feeling like this...


Breakfast
organic coffee with bonsoy
soy latte

lunch
beaf and black bean sauce rice noodles
sparkling water

snack
olives
home grown tom tom tomatos

dinner
beef black bean sauce with veges
chinese broccolli with garlic sauce

chai latte
2 glasses of water

olives stuffed with anchovies

Starling

I saw a Seagull far from sea
then i thought he could be....Javier Ramos ...The Starling

A day off and it was wonderful...sat in the sun i cleaned i sang and wrote songs and recorded three..The Broken which im very excited about..the starling which i wrote and recorded today on my autoharp and the day///i saw the movie Weekend which was good.


BREAKFAST
Two egg Omelette mushroom and tomato
organic coffee with bonsoy

lunch
pumpkin/swede parsnip soup
beetroot carrot and apple juice
organic coffee with bonsoy

Dinner
grilled fish chips and salad
peppermint tea
leftover yearling beef
Olive and Anchovies

I've been so many places in my life and time
I've sung a lot of songs, I've made some bad rhyme
I've acted out my life in stages with ten thousand people watching
But we're alone now and I'm singing this song for you...Whitney Houston


After 43 reviews i was pretty much had it..Still seething about the scratches comment..In me I felt angry for the first time for i knew what he meant.I felt discriminated and once again dirty..I ignored the phone message hoping it would go away part of me who is not me  feeling like crap because of it the other half relieved as i was saved from the confrotaion and the worry...Like a rocking horse not going anywhere..


Breakfast
Organic coffee with Bonsoy
Blueberry/banana egg pancakes


Snack
Pistacho


Lunch
Pumpkin/swede and parsnip soup


Snack
Beetroot carrot celery and apple juice


Dinner
Chinese Brocolli with Garlic Sauce
Yearling Beef with Veges and peking sauce (laksha King)


Peppermint tea

Open your heart to me, baby
I hold the lock and you hold the key
Open your heart to me, darlin'
I'll give you love if you, you turn the key....Madonna

Hon? Deep Scratches from a cat that hates me that i brought into our lives.Irritable because quarter past 7 was really 7.30...evenings spent in the kitchen..Is the universe trying to tell me something..instead of going north I went North west and took the cat to the vet..meanwhile that fifteen minuet showing happened without me ..and yet do i have  a second chance ...a second chance with anything?..Meanwhile I do feel great..Inside its like my body wants to be happy but my head is still in purgatory...I NEED ...

Breakfast

Orgainc Coffee with Bonsoy

Egg/Banana Pancakes

Soy Latte (brother budder buddah)

Snacks

Pistacho 

Raw nuts

Lunch

Kelp Noodles with Homemade sauce

Snacks

Olives with anchovies

Chorizo

Dinner

Cinnamon Chicken

Roasted Cauliflauer with Mint and Pommegranets

Steamed Broccoli

Snacks 

Peppermint Tea

MSM

! Blueberry banana pancake